Last night I was angry; I mean, steam coming out of my ears, shaking hands, angry! The kind of anger where you have so much adrenaline flowing through you that you could feel as though you could scale a building like Spiderman does, where the idea of climbing a mountain is appealing (I know, to some of you that’s appealing normally, to me, it’s not)!
So what the bleep do you do with anger???
I am always working with my three-year-old on stomping his feet, saying, “grrrr”, getting a drink of water, taking a deep breath, backing away, and jumping up and down instead of following his impulses and wanting to be destructive.
As an adult, honestly, first I wanted to eat chocolate (remember that blog on food where I said I’m an emotional eater). Then I wanted a sip of bourbon (those of you who know me, know I’m not much of a drinker, but it sounded so good last night). Then I wanted to scream which, with two sleeping kids and neighbors on either side, wasn’t a good option either.
So, what did I do? I went to Body Back. I sprinted faster than an Olympian (or so I imagine). I did every wood chop with extra force and went up in weight vs down as we got further along in our sets. I squeezed a resistance ring so hard my arms were shaking while holding a wall-sit. I held every plank and variation through every second. I conquered high-knees (which is virtually unheard of for me). The incredible women I work-out with reached out to me, empathized with me, cared about me, and gave me space, all at the same time.
Then, during the meditation time (stretching and just the right music), I cried. I released. I breathed. I literally left it All. On. The. Floor.
Anger isn’t easy. It isn’t fun to feel. It’s hard to talk about, and it sure as heck is hard to deal with. I don’t always handle it like I did last night, but dang, that felt good–to pour it out of me set-by-set, and rep-by-rep. I’d love to know, how do you release your anger? What’s your version of “saying ggrrrr?” Sound off here.